What emotions does the witnessing of a (on t.v.) evoke in you?

I recently watched a movie in which a pretty intense took place. The woman was pinned on her stomach, head held up by her ponytail by the rapist, legs spread wide apart. He repeatedly thrust himself inside her with conviction. She wasn't able to move much except for the constant jarring her body received from his thrusts. After he came, he slid out, rolled over and just lie there panting. The woman layed there sweating, panting/crying. I was repulsed, yet HIGHLY turned on. Do women, DEEP DOWN, fantasize about being masterfully d?